Missing My Own Mommy

I just sang Ade a lullaby that I've only ever sang to her twice before. The first time kind of came out of nowhere, the second time I got a little choked up, and tonight I full on just had to go into the kitchen to cry after I laid her down. My mom use to sing it to me when I was little. I just miss her so much. My heart squeezes in my chest and I hold my breath for a few seconds, my throat closes up really tight... because if feels like my heart is breaking. I haven't seen her for 2 and 1/2 years. Ade was only 1 month old last time my mom and I were together. I wish we lived closer. I really need her.